what if death

what if death were what is life?
I wanna reach to paradise
I wanna close both my eyes
In life we live to try
Whats a dream of an endless dawn ?
The never ending purest one

you’re sorry

whatever i had to wonder
whatever u had to say
Is this what you call thunder
coz i just call it pain

& every day
I look in the sky
close both my eyes
tear my heart out
forgive me is what  I pray

So
the other side of the story
no guts = no glory
we live our lives only to worry
then again
We slip in ignorance & blend
with them with them
I guess i should’ve said it
There & then
Awake
I break
Every promise I ever made
In my sleep
Too weak
It wasn’t me who said those words
That day

forever is just a moment
the price for life atonement
The desert spreads ahead
Yet I still lie in bed

In pain
In Blame
Your every lie is here safe
With me
You’re free

To cry your eyes out & say

You’re sorry

I miss you

If the speed of my words
Tells you I hurt
Then the tears in my eyes
Show you its worse
The rivers inside
waiting to rise
Worse than a billion
Crashing tides

The moment you left
My ears just turned deaf
The lips that were moving
To me with no breath

Astounded by reality
Logic just left
& what was with me
Was crazy instead

The things that I knew
Were no longer so
Be it a fact
Or fiction not true

Neither did I stop
Nor decide where to go
Where the road would take
Surely I don’t know

Ever since then
I’m just make pretend
A shadow of who I was
Much less than a man

Waiting to be with you
To talk once again

If ever there be a moment
That I call atonement

Would be when you left me
With your wisdom
I now know it

To grow is be old
Be old  as the cold
The cold that you hold
You hold deep inside
As the truth may unfold

To learn what is there
What is there is care
We care as so hurt
Then we hurt a lot worse

To shield those who need
Need those who bleed
Bleed for the cause
Then the cause is defeat

Sitting roadside
fact, fiction, lies
All that is true
I miss you each day

Contemplation

Worries & troubles
I look not for others
The side of my mind
This time I’m not right
Fear of defeat
Hold on to faith
May be we struggle
Our fight?
With each other

So what if a dream
Be not a scene
Of what we have
But what could have been?

If & why
Buy me some time
To do what I can
To undo my sin

Before the fall

Close your eyes
Take a deep breath
1 2 3
Now jump
No ?
You didn’t even realize I pushed you out of the plane when you closed your eyes, did you?

Pathetic . . .