Out of Fear

Its magic thats what they say
The boy shooting light from his hand
Miracles at his own command
Saw the future with his eyes
Invincible to all
Protected by a wall
Lies in more than out
Sin leads us to doubt
Where do we go ?
Where do we go from here?
Am I far from you ?
Or am I near?
Where do we go my dear?
I’m asking now so sincere
The boy never crossed the line
Endured his life embraced the pain
A smile on his face mistaken as happiness
A turmoil of dismay seen as bliss
For what they see an illusion not certainty
Breaking through find whats true would take more than a century
Where do we go ?
Where do we go from here?
Am I far from you ?
Or am I near?
Where do we go my dear?
I ask you so be clear
Is it easy to never sin ?
Easy to lose not win?
So the magic is gone away
Left in a lifeless state
Is it worth your other life?
To betray your belief
Where do we go ?
Where do we go from here?
Am I far from you ?
Or am I near?
Where do we go my dear?
I’m asking now out of fear
Now the boy is magic-less
Disarmed by a single kiss
Now as a human he discovered
His previous life he missed


For You

Today we celebrate
The end of all we hate
Three decades of tyranny
United in our cheers & prayers
Heartfelt cries of joy
To a better future paving the way
Engraved within our memories
This scene remains a part of me
The challenges start from here
Its far from over
We feel no fear
We’ll pass through anything
Rebuild it all
Anything is possible
We’ve climbed that wall
So here I am
We’re standing here today
We broke through all their eternal flames
& Here I am
We never left this land
When needed we’d
Fight For you again
We’ve accomplished that first phase
In our journey to search for peace
The first step on a long road
Lead by the young, admired by the old
Hundreds have fell for us to get here
Never forgotten, remembered in tears
What made us this way ?
Hell bent on altering, thriving for change
Would we do it if we knew what we know today?
That I can’t say, I’ll wait till I see
But this I do know
Coz its a fact to me
Here I am
We’re standing here today
We broke through all their eternal flames
& Here I am
We never left this land
When needed we’d
Fight For you again
To all of those who lost someone that day
I beg you “forgive me”
If I’d been stronger then may be
They’d still be
Among us here today
To celebrate , to see
Their dream become reality
Yes I do feel guilty
Its become another part of me
Here I am
Standing here today
For you who died
Your mission’s mine always
& Here I am
You never left this land
You’re buried here
For here my life will end
Here I am
Without a single plan
To you who lives
Please lend me a hand
They died that day
For you

Who pulled the trigger ?

My brothers & sisters lie dead
Helpless I cant understand
300 & the body count rises
Don’t tell me we all make choices
Its pointless to even try
Telling me its an honest mistake?
Repeated over 300 times ?????
How stupid do you think I am?
Very Very if they think they’ll win
Who pulled the trigger?
Who gave the order?
To kill unarmed men
Using live ammunition
Putting their life to an end
Who let it happen?
Was it one of us?
Government , police, those I can’t trust.
A question to he who did
Fire the shot that killed someone
Drove a car that hit & run
Camel guy was it just fun?
Can you call yourself Egyptian?
We’ll find you one by one
& then we’ll make sure
You don’t ever see the sun
Who pulled the trigger?
What went through his mind?
As he shot his brother
Did he feel inside
His heart being torn out just like mine?
Orders, Orders I’m sure they’ll say
You’re mindless tools
To a bunch of fools
You’re expendable to them
A worthless, useless hand
That can be cut off at a whim
Live & enjoy your lives
Or whats left of it anyway
Who pulled the trigger?
Was it us who weren’t there?
We might have saved them yes I swear
If only we’d over come the fear
I’m fed up of all the lies
Against it all till freedom is mine
These people have blood on their hands
Its time to put it all to an end

Revolution 101: The Rules by which I Run

Since we’re going through a revolution here are the rules by which I run

0- If you can’t save yourself you can’t save anyone

Explanation: If you’re dead every person you could have saved is as well, if you’re in it to save lives.
Granted When your time comes it’ll come. But don’t just throw it. Your life is priceless & that should have as
much effect if not more of an atomic bomb on your enemies. Because it will on your allies.

1-Live to die another day.

Explanation: We’re all gonna die one day. But it doesn’t have to be the same day someone has to stay alive to ensure that those who died didn’t die in vain to carry on their will & make sure they rest in peace.

2- Plan, Anticipate, elaborate, calculate, recalculate , then simulate. Finally, don’t depend on anything going the way you planned it.

Explanation : Be as prepared as you can but know that shit happens.

3- You are the source you can make everything better or worse.

Explanation: Never underestimate the power of 1 , never underestimate yourself, don’t let anyone decide what you can or can’t do. The answer to that lies within you. You are a human being , a wonder, the most sophisticated creation. Wthin you lies the potentiality to change the world all you have to do is pursue it.

4- Insanity is just a way to become what you want to be.

Explanation: Go crazy on their ass. Sometimes being logical can only stand as a final barrier between you and your goals.

5- Assumption is the mother of all screwups

Explanation: Taken not mine but true. What you think is happening & what really is happening are two different things.
Always account for the possibility that either you don’t get them or they don’t you & let time tell the answer.

6- If its the time to fight , Don’t listen when they ask you to wait.

Explanation: You’re in a war , you stop to listen to what your opposition has to say?? Really? How naive are you?. Momentum is part of the drive you don’t stop a car & expect you can restart it at any time not with the cops blocking the road or a tank. Sometimes your own mind gets in the way shut it down & let your instincts take center fold.

7- There’s a point of no return when the first body falls.

Explanation : People are already dead & you think you’re having it hard ??? wake up.

8- People are dead & nothing anybody says or does will bring them back.

Explanation: Its self explanatory. Pray for the dead & respect that they did what we can’t. They did it for me & you. You ungrateful *****.

9- Never forgive, Never forget.

Explanation: Its the jews/israeli motto but in war it must be used if you lose your drive , if you forget why you’re fighting you’ve already lost.

10- See it through till its through.

Explanation: There is no time limit this is a life time mission, its not a weekend thing, not the latest fashion style, not hip.
If you’re not dedicated don’t start it people will die, if you don’t get it right they will hit you harder & it’ll only get worse & All sacrifices made will be in vain.

You wanna see a revolution go bad watch “Brave Heart” thats what you get when it doesn’t work out.

“We Live by the rules, we die by the rules ” quote from “The Skulls”

I’m not sure if & how long I’ll live so I thought I’d write it for others may be it can help. & If I’m not here please see my will through.

Friday the 28th: How I became a criminal?

I know you’re saying it started on the 25th of january a day in history no one will ever forget. But for me I had work on that day albeit it was a national holiday but it was already decided months ago before the protestors decided it’d be the 1st day.

On the way home from work on the 6th of October bridge I could see police (Amn markazy ) on the bridge I’d followed the news on the net but I didn’t think it was this bad.

So what happened to the 26th & the 27th fever hit me I’d reached a 40 degree by the time I came around it was thursday the 27th around midnight I called my aunt ( my entire family isn’t here long story) she lives in the same building so she came took my temperature a fair 38 & pumped me up with meds & she kept telling me about what was happening I still couldn’t imagine.

Friday the 28th I woke up to the sound of protestors under my window the most thing that grabbed my attention was that most of them had their cell phones out & were taping the entire thing youtube has made us all camera men, blogs reporters, all for the better you can’t believe the press in this country but later on that. Tried to call my boss to tell him I wasn’t coming but dadandandan no signal tried to logon line but surprise surprise no line. Called TE data customer service the guy told me that they were facing (TECHNICAL ISSUES) & so was every provider in the country & mobile operator? yeah right!!. Since I knew he was lying I asked what kind of technical issue his reply “It hasn’t been specified yet”. This is a whole new ball game here the last time I asked for someone’s landline number was in 2005. who pulled the plug & why?.

After batch number 1 of protestors were gone all decent looking people alot of familiar faces & an actor among them, came batch number two the three with every batch the decent faces were getting less & less.

By night time I was able to go up to my aunt’s for some reason my decoder decided to commit suicide, what a piece of crap you’d think you’d at least work under these circumstances?. As a high tech net-oriented guy I never felt a need to open the TV the internet had it all for me but this only proved how much I relied on it. My cousins had already been telling alot of stuff but I had to see this with my own eyes.

The stuff on the news was beyond anything I’d ever expected (not the egyptian channels obviously they were talking about another country or space time continuum definitely not the here & now may be lala land , disneyland ,definitely not this land).

Apparently there were clashes between police & protestors, & they were only escalating. It looked really bad especially in Suez I don’t think we’ve heard anything about Suez for years obviously they had it really bad.

I was still pretty sick so I excused my self after I was updated on the situation & went to bed.


Thats what woke me up I live on a main street so I thought there was some sort of car accident pretty normal in Cairo but the screaming was right under my window, I put on an ice cap took an iron bar & descended. All unfamiliar faces, Great!!!!, Both security guards no where to be found neither the ones next door. I look & the “Mobile Shop” under the building glass door was broken , awesome, immediately I suspect everybody especially two guys passing by saying that they saw a silver car throwing a stone at it. Yeah right. From a speeding car?? He should apply for the national handball team ? . A guy passing by told me that all the stores on Gamaat Al Dewal street were either robbed or in the process of being robbed told me his name said he was from Jordan been 12 years in Egypt & was on “Star Academy” Whats that??? I apologized & told him I don’t watch tv so if he were famous I wouldn’t know.. Where were the police? mmm, Time to find out. I had my wireless at hand dialled “122” the egyptian equivalent to “911” no answer again no answer, tried “140” (a number to ask for phone numbers) no answer ok this is getting creepy.

I decided to call my aunt 2 minutes & both my cousins were with me ok familiar faces thats good there were neighbors but this is bad someone has to have my back. I began to find out names of the neighbors a lady in our building & those in neighboring buildings. After a while the store security supervisor came on his motorcycle said he’d get a guard & be back in 15 minutes. After a while he came back with a guy looked fairly young 18 to 20 years , I left the matter in his hands & went back to sleep enough action for one night I’m still sick.


What the ….? Who died?

Don’t ever come back you sons of a ……

Thats what I heard as I jumped out of bed I recognized the voice our neighbor in the building.

I grabbed my Iron bar & a large kitchen knife & stormed out of the apartment. Reaching down the security guard looked really pale teary eyes, didn’t check whether his pants were wet or not but he was stuttering “Kkill mme tthey … sssaaiiiid” as I looked around I could only see our neighbors, Who threatened you?

The story went like this four Riff raffs snuck up on him & they gave him a multiple choice question “We wanna rob the store” so

a- You let us rob the store & we split the loot
b- You don’t let us rob the store & we kill you

Apparently he chose “b” what a poor chap so the argument moved to the method of execution till one of the just shouted “One bullet & its over why quarrel”. At that moment our neighbors heard the argument & swarmed the scene.

Ok so security guy was in no shape (nor did he have the ability) to carry on protecting the store they neither have the equipment , training or mindset for this. Most of the time the job is sit there all night.

So what are we suppose to do, silence & then a light bulb lit “Lets rob the place”

Why did you become a criminal?

Well obviously its my upbringing, poverty the social circumstances, the need , …etc. Thats what came to my mind & I tried to figure out what my reply would be to that question I’ve seen on a dozen prime time shows all over the world if the police were to walk in on me in the middle of the heist.

With my iron bar I broke the rest of the glass door ” WEEEEE WAAAAAAA” there goes that noisy alarm again, so what do we do now we searched for the power switch but I can see in the dark so no problem found the keys hanging in sequence very nice of them they put a sticker on every key set so we the burglars ( as in I & the young security guy) won’t go wasting time trying to open the show cases randomly.

All the while our neighbors were keeping watch for us, I went upstairs got a travel bag & started filling it up, it’d been half an hour with the alarm still on & not a soul in sight.

Bag#1 was full I put it upstairs & went back down with bag #2 a neighbor of mine found the power switch yeah that what I’m talking about in another 15 minutes the entire store was emptied, what I couldn’t carry I put in the closets that were full of papers, psychologically whoever entered this store wouldn’t take a second looked its empty to his eyes while the closets still closed safely had the rest of the stuff. I got suggestions to dismantle the LCD from the wall come one guys I won’t go that far.

I opened the cashier drawer 480 LE in there, put the rest of the keys there & closed it while putting the master key in my pocket.

We closed the light asked the security guard to sleep inside & I went upstairs & fell from exhaustion @4:30 AM. Praying nothing else would happen. This operation went so smooth I’m thinking about a career change , I’m wondering how I can add this kind of experience to my CV.?

My advice to any novice aspiring criminal:

1- Always have someone watching the road
2- In & out as fast as you can
3- If there is a riot, protest ,…etc. Don’t worry they want you to steal.
4- Shop owners = showy. Take that advantage , why else would they make the doors out of glass with no iron shield??
5- Alarms mean squat if mobile phones are down.
6- Security guards aren’t paid enough to risk their lives.
7- Study well the scene of the crime & use its surroundings to your advantage.
8- Security guards aren’t trained well enough to take you out if you’re organized.( One against many = instant win)
9- Police don’t care if you steal their job isn’t to stop crime its to catch criminals without you they’d be out of a job.
10- If i can do it so can you.

There’s a criminal in all of us just let out your inner criminal. let him lead you.

What happened to the stuff I stole ???


Well that happened on the 29th 😉

What do we do then?

Who are you?
The same ?
Not true
You feel so clear?
I’m me No Fear
You’ve changed my dear
The lock on your lips
Has finally fell
I see through their tricks
They planned them so well
If I’d met him just a month ago
I’d tell him wake up get ready to go
Its starting right now , Its starting right here
This is the time to change history
He’d probably look back at me & say
I’m just one so what can I do?
The forces are stronger I’m weaker you fool
Who would even hear what I say?
Nobody cares, What it feels like each day
If this is a game I want it over right now
But nobody said that we could stop it or how
All you can do is write your songs
But people don’t even read them
Or they get them all wrong
That sight of him
Makes me hate him
I want to be
The best not weak
Round one he wins
Round two begins
So what if people just no longer care?
What if its just your life you can spare?
What if your neighbors don’t even say hi?
You meet people you know but they only pass you by
If everyone’s doing it doesn’t mean that its right
You raise up your own bar
To evolve in life
You think that legends are made over night?
They spend their entire lives to win a single fight
He stares at me
No sign of retreat
Round 2 goes to me
Think it’ll end at 3
Round 3 here it comes
That upper cut his favorite punch
For this it all comes down instinct & hunch
Its all still the same, you must be insane
To think in a week your whole world can change
You’re still so naive to trust them again
Haven’t they caused you enough pain?
Thats what he says as he punches me
I let him hit approach won’t retreat
As I get closer I see what I missed
My faceless opponent is …
I want to believe it will be alright
Those sacrifices won’t be forgotten in a fortnight
What they say now isn’t just more lies
But as you know there are no guarantees in life
You stand here today
As my opponent but tomorrow
I may be your friend
If you can’t save yourself you can’t save anyone
Self sacrifice is for check mate not fun
So take care till we meet again
I’ll wait as you asked to see what happens
But if your faith is misplaced then
The time for words will be over my friend
He left , I’m spared
For now , but I fear
If he’s right again
Then what do we do then?

Its a Wonder

Heaven & hell on earth together
Risk your life for each other
Sacrifice, taste the trouble
Be more wise defy the devil
Help another stay alive
Say you’re not so selfish try
Even if its all a lie
May be we can make it be
Tempted by the things we like
Call upon your one mistake
Call upon the things you hate
They exist for a reason
So do you so start believing
Its the time to stay not leaving
Even if we were to die
You are better don’t betray
Crimson stars in skies up high
Causing war on earth each day
Cursed below are tyrants pray
Blessed above are martyrs say
Death is there its not evil
Humans are denying free will
Even if we were to pray
Its our own weakness that caused this shame
Can’t sleep, feeling guilty?
Still alive asking why me?
Live to die another day
See it through pave the way
All it takes is just one day
To change the world to end the pain
Its a wonder we didn’t try
To change it all before that day