The Kingdom of Rest

Imagine your self standing at a bus stop waiting for the bus to pass by. That bus has no schedule, neither is there a specific manual as to how you can reach to where you wanna go.

This bus is your salvation, your only ticket out of where you are. With every moment passing by that place keeps getting awkward, you start losing your senses one by one, may be first your ability to comprehend, then speech after that listening , ..etc.

Till at last you’re rendered absolutely helpless, completely frustrated as you begin to realize that bus just might not pass by.

We take everything we have for granted whereas its a grant & a gift that should be cherished, every single thing eyes, ears, ..etc, even sleep.

If you’re one of those who lurk the night, ever so awake, you know what I’m talking about. I’ve come to notice that people view sleep as a given where as since my early memories its engraved in my mind as a precious diamond that I’ve been forever searching for.

Ever magical, ever eluding, extremely well hidden lies the key to the kingdom of rest & no worries. Just put your head on the pillow & voila you’re there no effort needed. Just close your eyes & your guaranteed a way out of this harsh reality albeit only through the night.

Just Imagine

You finished one of the longest days of your life you’re dead tired & may be even sick you slip into your PJs & go to bed but you just can’t sleep for no reason what so ever.

How frustrated would you be?

Money , power, fame, ..etc. These are all common sources of envy but to someone who has Insomnia (i.e :Insomniac) a good night’s sleep is at the top of his list. For when everybody else is asleep you’re at the top of your game attentive, hyper & there’s no sign of sleep in sight.

Its an endless loop you’ve been locked in for as early as you can remember, some say its a curse others an abnormality but certainly it can make you feel helpless when you’re deprived of one of your most simple needs.

As for me?

I’m still on my quest searching for the key to the kingdom of rest.

Dedicated to an avid Insomiac may Mr.Sleep find his way to your door one day 🙂

Hold me in your Arms

The shadow fell on the wall
Darker than I recall
Fear grew towards all
Eventual rise
Inevitable fall
Alter egos seem confused
Life itself has been removed
Yet its essence still remains
In my heart it causes pain

Hold me in your arms Forever
When you let me go?
Say never
Help me in this anguished endeavor
For only you can
Only you can
Sorry I say
Only myself I can blame Forever

That Greenish light
Comes along in summer time
You seem in a way
Impossible to me
Your eyes yeah they light
My heart up with delight
Your smile like a wave
Sure my soul is still untamed
& your tears
yes I fear
This is where we end to care

Hold me in your arms Forever
When you let me go?
Say never
Help me in this anguished endeavor
For only you can
Only you can
Sorry I say
Only myself I can blame Forever

The obstacles rise in every road
While our’s is just crowded too odd
Towards the end I reach for your hand
& thats when you leave me
To drop down I’m dead

Hold me in your arms Forever
When you let me go?
Say never
Help me in this anguished endeavor
For only you can
Only you can
Sorry I say
Only myself I can blame
We’re not together

I called you my Angel

I called you my Angel
You turned out a stranger
Why is it over again
That love is regarded as lose or win

Each step I took so cautious
Not to hurt your emotions
Yet when I thought I was so close
To you my special rose
You banished me from heaven
Cast me to hell
Wounded & Bleeding
I prayed as I fell

I called you my Angel
You turned out a stranger
Why is it over again
That love is regarded as lose or win

Torn & devastated
Lost within the hatred
My soul is over weighted
With guilt you made it
I stand here as I scream
Redemption my dream
Confusion your theme

I called you my Angel
You turned out a stranger
Why is it over again
That love is regarded as lose or win

What was your motivation?
In hurting Hod’s creation
Altering his shape
Twisting his mind
Making him feel deserted in time

I called you my Angel
You turned out a stranger
Why is it over again
That love is regarded as lose or win
Lose or win ? thats a SIN

It is where the end begins
Deceiving every moment
Your own wits
So when your heart starts beating
Don’t dare you go believing
Run away head for cover
Before you get Fucked over

I called you my Angel

I’m your Creation

Note from the writer:
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Just to be clear I am a religious person I believe in God I am a man of faith the intended in this are the people who hurt us so bad they deform us, twist us & transform us.

Thus creating …..

I’m your creation:
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I may be the darkest there is
In your eyes the maze goes steeper
As we lose our wits
The screams fill the room
Along with the fear
I run look for you
Not anywhere near

The torture begins
The game of your life
Yet you dear one
Cut me like a knife
The storm broke me through
Washed my blood away
Brutalized I cry
For God to take me

This is never ending
Agonizing pain
When are Angels sent if not on this day ?
The look in your eyes
That gaze full of fear
The shock & the terror
Causing you to stare

I’m your creation
The demon, The Gargoyle of the citadel
I’m your creation
if you ever despise me
You’ve done your job well
I’m your creation
I’m your creation

Defeated, Estranged my whole life rearranged
Wake up to find that justice is blind
Something is gone you just can’t find
You search for the answers
Yet its all too clear
The goal of your life has vanished my dear
The weak on the streets
The mighty in bed
This is the time for me to go dead

I’m your creation
The Monster, The demon of the citadel
I’m your creation
if you ever despise me
You’ve done your job well
I’m your creation
I’m your creation

You took it all away
Washed with the rain
Opposing my might
Granting me pain
Dividing my soul
Thus conquering me
Devastating everything I once stood to be
Crippling my will
Blurring my mind
All so to make me
One of your kind

I’m your creation
The Beast, The Monster of the citadel
I’m your creation
if you ever despise me
You’ve done your job well
I’m your creation
I’m your creation

that was the last seen of the man

For all seen now

Is a creature that is damned

The End

The Beginning
The End
All the same
Time won’t bend for thee
We start all sane
Pure, Innocent with nothing yet to blame
But as the days pass us by
The plot just thickens unleashing all the lies
Tricked into believing
Deceived without conceiving
Wake up & open your eyes
For the grandest scheme
Since the start of human life

The tears that fall
The wounds that bleed
The pain we feel
No one shall exceed

& In this scheme
Who is to blame?
We’ll throw ourselves into the flame

This world shall spin
No one shall win
We’ll fight again
& Lose because this is the end

The truth a lie
Love a way
Escape they say
But where to ?
No one ever told me
I stand & pray

I wish the end had come today

A smile like yours

its hard not to want to see a smile like yours every moment of my life.

& its really hard to find a smile like yours anytime & any place.

May be thats the secret why man explored space.

They searched for such a smile on earth without a trace.

A smile that can make us feel at peace.

Eternal bliss & endless grace.

It’d be a crime to let such a smile leave your face

We spend all of our lives going out of our minds

Yeah as usual I’m inspired by a song but I’m not saying its name till the end this time.

So why do we allow the madness to creep in , day after day till we find ourselves on the edge one day?
Simply put we demand too much, humans are melodramatic creatures & most are cry babies who make life into a pathetic drama if it doesn’t give them what they want & they might cry out like a baby if things don’t go their way.

On one side , you find who people just can’t forget the past “the golden age” the good old days when everything was ok & (eldonia kanet lesa be7’eir) as they say in Egypt. Reminiscence & dwelling in the past whether that past was painful or poetic.

While on the other side, you see people so consumed by the future, asking questions like Where will the world be in 50 years? or How long will it take him to be a bizalionaire & spend all that money?,. I’m as obsessed with Planning, Risk analysis & mitigation as the next person but this is getting silly, How far ahead is planning ahead?, What if it all ends tomorrow by an unforeseen factor?

You get my point both sides are wasting their time in something that doesn’t exist, while in the middle of all that both sides seem to have forgotten about the present.

Now, this moment, this breath I’m taking right here this is the point at which I exist, this is where I can make a difference not 30 years ago & may be not 30 years in the future. This is the only certainty in the whole equation other than that its all speculation.

Hopefully, people will get that & learn that the past ended long ago, the future is something we still don’t know. So to you in the past “Please let go”, & to you looking towards the future ” you sure you’ll live till then bro?”.

Thats all I had to say this time, now go enjoy “They stood up for love” by live, read the lyrics carefully its part of the msg

Piano version with lyrics

Original rock version no lyrics with people jumping